emails i can't send (Explicit)

[00:06.04]It's times like these wish
[00:07.96]I had a time machine
[00:09.65]So I could see what you did October 13th
[00:13.43]At 10:15 were you really asleep
[00:17.31]Were you lyin' to me and the family
[00:20.95]There's no us in us when
[00:22.96]I'm lackin' trust
[00:24.70]You wanna discuss ugh you disgust me
[00:28.71]Don't make me cuss you out
[00:30.92]Why'd you let me down
[00:32.70]Don't say sorry now
[00:35.87]And thanks to you
[00:37.63]I I can't love right
[00:40.15]I get nice guys and villainize them
[00:43.88]Read their texts like they're havin' s*x right now
[00:47.60]Scared I'll find out that it's true
[00:50.58]And if I do then I blame you
[00:54.33]For every worst that I assume
[00:57.76]When I'm forty-five someone calls me their wife
[01:01.85]And he f**ks our lives in one selfish night
[01:05.37]Don't think I'll find forgiveness as fast as mom did
[01:09.59]And God I love you
[01:11.08]But you're such a dips**t
[01:13.47]Please f**kin' fix this
[01:17.43]'Cause you were all I looked up to
[01:21.80]Now I can't even look at you
[01:39.31]I mean as they say in Chicago
[01:43.63]He had it comin'